October 26.5


Well, you all sent me some questions.  Lots of them, in fact.  Unfortunately, I left the majority of the questions you asked at work, and I'm working AT HOME because I'm trying out this whole UPDATE FROM HOME again thing.   I love what you've been asking me, keep them coming.  One person actually sent me like a 100 question meme, which I'm about 1/4th of the way through.  Rock on!  Anyhow, here are the questions I have in my inbox.  Enjoy.


1. What food could you not live without?   I'm really partial to seafood risotto, though I don't have it a lot.  I guess that's not something I couldn't live without, since I haven't had it in about 4 months, so I'll say.  Um.  Maybe.  I have no idea.  I like steak and also ice cream.


2. What food absolutely disgusts you?  There are a lot of foods I won't eat.  Of course, now I can't think of a single one, so sorry about that.  Oh, okay.  I won't eat fast food (White Castle doesn't count as fast food, it is ESSENTIAL).  I don't really eat pizza, but it doesn't disgust me.

3. Why did you start an online journal?  I've been asked that pretty often, and I'm going to stick to the answer I gave years ago, I had something to say and someone I wanted to say it to.  The reason I continue to write a journal, I really don't know.  I like it, I guess.  I look forward to updating, when I do.

4. What other online journals inspire you?  Inspire is a big word.  I think there are some great people writing and I'm surprised to see how the whole blog thing has taken off, because I'm sorry, but I don't have much use for them.  Hah, how was that for non answer?  I guess the bottom line is that I don't find journals inspiring.  Sure, I think some of them are funny and well written and great, but none of them really inspire me to go out and better myself. 

5.  How about humiliating junior high stories?  Once, I stole a maxi pad out of my friend's purse, wrote "I'M BLEEDING" on it in a red marker, and stuck it to her back.  She had no idea why people were laughing at her.  That's not so much humiliating for ME as it was for her.  I'm a dick.

6.  Have you ever been kicked out of a movie theatre?  A bar?  A Mall?  Believe it or not, I've never been kicked out of anything.  I was once severely scolded by this nasty old woman who worked at the pharmacy a few blocks away from my house, and she called me a ROTTEN APPLE.

7.  Have you ever shoplifted? As I was answering the last question, I realized that I was answering this one, too. I was never kicked out anywhere, but I was banned from a Spencer Gifts at Kings Plaza because I got caught shoplifting a handful of Pink Floyd pins.  Unfortunately, I also had a sack filled with crap I'd stolen from other stores.  They made me call my mother, it sucked.  I recently went BACK to Kings Plaza, and I was halfway convinced my photograph would still be hanging on some wall, but I was welcomed.  Me and my credit cards.

8.  How do you feel NOW about online journaling? I'm sort of unimpressed.  No offense to the new journals out there, but I don't read a whole hell of a lot of people not on my links list, and honestly, I don't get to all of them all the time. 

9.  How do you feel about your readers?  They're nice.  I've got a few hard core readers who've been with me and emailing me for the whole 5 years, and I'm honored and flattered.  Especially when people say nice things about me.

10.  Do you feel guilty about long absences?  No. I have a life and problems and all kinds of shit going on that I don't want to share with the world, and when I don't have something to say, I'm just not going to say it.

11.  Do you make up excuses so that you don't "have" to journal?  Heh.  I don't make excuses for anything.

12. What do your friends think about your online journaling? A lot of my friends HAVE online journals.  The ones who don't (Nicole comes to mind) read me every once in a while, and I think she likes it because it's about as close to having a conversation with me as she can possibly get without actually sitting down with me.

13. How do you think your journaling has changed your life?  I've made friends I would never have made, I've met people I would never have met.  It's been great, mostly.  As with everything else, some people suck. 

14. Why did you stop including a daily photograph? Because I haven't updated from home in more than a year, and home is the only place I have a camera.  I tossed the Irez cam I'd been using because the cord was frayed and only worked every 10th photo or so.


15.  Does it have anything to do with gaining weight? No, not so much.  See above.  To expound on the problem, when I upgraded from OS 9 to OS X, I was mightily confused.  My old laptop couldn't deal with going back and froth from 9 to X, so I went to all X and never bothered to figure out how to update with X.  Hence, today being the first At Home Post in forever.  There's no photo because I'm still working the kinks out.  Composer was giving me a strange message every time I attempted to post a photo.  There, a long answer to a quick question.

16. How do you feel about gaining weight?  Here's the thing.  And I don't want to sound cocky because certainly 90 percent of the time I feel like a giant turd, but--and here's the but--I'm a confident, outgoing person.  Being heavier didn't make me more or less confident.  I am who I am, I look how I look.  Whether people find me attractive or not is kind of not my problem or my concern. I look back to the weight I was when I started the journal, and I don't remember feeling like I was all that hot then, either, so really, it's no different.  I'm also 33, and my give a shit tank is empty.


Please note:  This looks worse than my page USUALLY looks, and that's sort of horrible.  I'm still trying to figure how how to use composer to update with OS X.  I'm really sorry, this is ASS.


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